It's been really just work > home > work these days. I can hardly feel like I'm only 21 years old nowadays too. I feel super super old, to be very honest. I get so tired easily and insomnia most of the time when I finally get to my bed at night.

My boy is already 17 months now, time really pass so quickly right? It feels like just yesterday I was having fun, and the next day I'm a mom, and now my boy is becoming a big boy soon. And I even registered school for him already. 

2016.

What's really for me in 2016? I have no idea.

My dreams used to be so big, wild, full of imaginations.

While now? I feel as though as long as I get to save more than just enough money for my future it'll be good enough. I guess most moms nowadays feel this way right? Like money is never enough no matter how much you earn. The more you earn, the more expenses you have, thus your leftover will always remain THE SAME.

Just watched a movie at home yesterday about girls partying and enjoying their life.

And at that moment, (although I know I'm not suppose to think this way) I realised how much I've missed out in just 2-3 years of my so called teenage life ever since I got "legal" at 18.

I felt as though I chose this path I cannot complain and I feel guilty if I even regret a little all the time.

Never in my life I worked hard because in the past I don't have to. Just enough to spend, play, have fun will be good.

But now, everyday dragging myself to work and work.

But definitely I hope 2016 will be a super good year, I hope for pay rise, I hope for more bonuses and I hope for many more things that can happen in my life. 

But each time I see his face when I feel really tired of life, tired of facing the facts,

he made me smile and realise I've gave birth to someone so close to me and so adorable, so pure.

And I thank God for letting him into my life, and felt happy again.

This picture means alot because I took so many pictures and he got tired of even posing for the last one.

It will never be the last if he didn't show this expression. I think that's why he gave it to me earlier HAHA.

Shall end it here, and get back to work.

(yes I got too bored at work and got time to start complaining over here)

Happy new year!

HALLOWEEN. 

It's Halloween oh my god. I guess I'm really getting too old these days to even realise this. Because yes I did celebrate Halloween early Oct but that was when I thought it was the actual Halloween and it's not haha. Kinda outdated recently or I can say it's been awhile.

Haven't been updating my site for quite some time due to work, and also 1% lazy.

Well I've recently gotten an offer and it's a office hour job, which means I have more time for myself, family, love and also my kid of course.

I'm not sure how the environment will be but well, no job comes perfect. 

As long as I don't get bullied like how I did at my previous job.

Well just this month itself I've tons of things going through my mind.

And since this is my own space, I shall just sort of spill it out.

Hmm I was actually thinking if I'm gonna have my number 2 because

yep as what ALL women are afraid of every month is their period. If they're expecting something, they will pray hard their period never comes.

But if they're not, they pray up it comes on time. Am I right?

Well it's been a regular timing for me but this time round it's so different.

Well I'm really not sure if I'm ready for it but it's because I just got a office hour which I've been searching for like so long and suddenly everything goes hay wire again. This is my life actually. Nothing goes smoothly for once.

People around me told me to go for a check, and yes I did. I'm not but it's still not here so I'm stressed up. I don't know what's keeping it from coming tho.

I realise 2015 actually passes so quickly that I didn't actually achieve anything this year for myself. Literally nothing and I'm really disappointed myself. And what's worse is I spend all my savings and left with none.

Thankful to have my husband with me to cover all the hassle hehe.

Just the other day, the Mr and Mrs Ang cooked dinner for the whole family. It's pretty well done up for first timers like us ok. If you actually been looking thru my IG you'll be able to see all the delicious yummy food we've prepared using like 4 hours. It's total of about 5 dishes. Egg, Prawns, Fish, Veg, Wings.

The ultimate fav of most people. I'm a lover for chicken wings like seriously.

But I'm more of a fan of vegetables after I grew up. And now, I can literally eat just veg and rice and I'm satisfied. Something's wrong with me because I'm still growing fat.

Hub's birthday is in 1 day time and I can't wait to show him what I've prepared for him!!

I've spent a whole 3 months planning it and honestly if he doesn't like it I'm gonna just kill myself. (jk) I know he will love it hahaha.

IG will be filled with lovely pictures if you're interested.

Oh yes, my IG : nhpz

(if you didn't know I actually changed my username agn)

Well he's going thru the first few stages of his gift (braces). Next week he's gonna suffer in pain again because of his wisdom tooth extraction. I was really excited to get my own braces done too but after seeing the number of medicine he has to take after extraction and the pain that even him (he can tolerate pain at a very high level) also cannot take it. I think I will just die of that pain. But I know it's worth it so I'm still gonna try after he's almost done with braces. Hehe.

Honestly I often think that we should be contented with what we have in life but honestly sometimes I feel like my life is quite a mess. I really need like some angels to come into my dreams and if possible my LIFE to just give me a lil hope. Like just once to enlighten me I also happy haha.

Shall end it off here. It's quite lengthy but well if you love reading you'll read. If you don't then stay tune to my IG for picturesssssss.

xx

nhpz

JUNE.

It's been a really amazing month itself. Not just work but also personal life.

Well, I can say many thing happened. But everything happened for a reason. There are good ones and bad ones but mostly good I guess.

It's really been a busy month itself but yet I'm really so tired of waking up so early in the morning to go to work especially when I know my only purpose was to make sales and earn money because I'm on a full commission basis itself. But that's what I've chosen from the beginning. I have to give it a shot no matter what. But for personal life, it's really the best of the best.

I'm really hoping to close the deal that I've thinking for more than 2 weeks already because that's the second deal I actually helped my husband with. And this time round, it's gonna be big! Well, I'm really excited because when he's happy, I'm happy too.

Our relationship has ups and downs definitely but he's so nice to be that I feel guilty that I turn out to be a bitch sometimes which I guess most of the girls out there also have their mood swing period right.... Not just me. He gave in so much to me and always putting me in first priority which that makes me so touched and happy every day. I'm actually a very easily contented person. Haha, I don't need gifts or anything to be happy. Each time he calls, I feel extremely happy just by listening to his voice. Overly attached wife.

But sometimes being overly attached is bad...

But I don't really bother because as long as I get to spend more time with him I feel happy.
Nothing really matters more than having enough bonding time together.

For myself,
I didn't achieve much in the month of June and I didn't even earn much as well. Feeling really really tired almost everyday and totally no motivation left also... But I just have to keep trying and hopefully it turns out well someday. Well, this month is ending and I should start preparing for July!
I wanna plan for a get away trip soooooon! YAY.
My hubby says....
CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY OVERSEAS THIS YEAR HEHE.

That's what keeps me going everyday though haha because I get to spend it with him just two of us overseas!
Have a great July soon ;)