It's been really just work > home > work these days. I can hardly feel like I'm only 21 years old nowadays too. I feel super super old, to be very honest. I get so tired easily and insomnia most of the time when I finally get to my bed at night.

My boy is already 17 months now, time really pass so quickly right? It feels like just yesterday I was having fun, and the next day I'm a mom, and now my boy is becoming a big boy soon. And I even registered school for him already. 

2016.

What's really for me in 2016? I have no idea.

My dreams used to be so big, wild, full of imaginations.

While now? I feel as though as long as I get to save more than just enough money for my future it'll be good enough. I guess most moms nowadays feel this way right? Like money is never enough no matter how much you earn. The more you earn, the more expenses you have, thus your leftover will always remain THE SAME.

Just watched a movie at home yesterday about girls partying and enjoying their life.

And at that moment, (although I know I'm not suppose to think this way) I realised how much I've missed out in just 2-3 years of my so called teenage life ever since I got "legal" at 18.

I felt as though I chose this path I cannot complain and I feel guilty if I even regret a little all the time.

Never in my life I worked hard because in the past I don't have to. Just enough to spend, play, have fun will be good.

But now, everyday dragging myself to work and work.

But definitely I hope 2016 will be a super good year, I hope for pay rise, I hope for more bonuses and I hope for many more things that can happen in my life. 

But each time I see his face when I feel really tired of life, tired of facing the facts,

he made me smile and realise I've gave birth to someone so close to me and so adorable, so pure.

And I thank God for letting him into my life, and felt happy again.

This picture means alot because I took so many pictures and he got tired of even posing for the last one.

It will never be the last if he didn't show this expression. I think that's why he gave it to me earlier HAHA.

Shall end it here, and get back to work.

(yes I got too bored at work and got time to start complaining over here)

Happy new year!