Today I would like to talk about the changes in my life ever since I've decided to be a mother.

Things ain't always as smooth as it looked like, because obviously I went through a lot of thinking, a lot of considering especially due to my age as a teenager.

At the end of the day, I told myself I really want this kid to be in my life, and start a new life as a wife, a mother.

I used to party almost thrice a week, and also worked with my friends at several pubs. I enjoyed my work as all I need to do is drink which I love drinking a lot. I had no worries back then, because I had all the freedom I want, I do anything that I like, going home at wee hours after I'm done partying with my friends after work. But one day when this truth struck me that I'm actually pregnant, I was really lost. I didn't know what I'm supposed to do. And the truth struck me when me and my boyfriend were having an argument. Which makes the whole situation sounds even worse. I went to look for my friends and not knowing what to do. Asking them for advice but I didn't hear anything that they were telling me at that period of time. My mind just went so blank and lost, I just wish it wasn't the truth.

After a few days of consideration, I've decided to keep this baby. Instead of going for an abortion due to many negative outcomes. At that moment, my boyfriend agreed on keeping the kid as well. So, I brought it up to my mother and surprising she did not disagree on my decision but she respected it. She talk me through the consequences I'll face if I actually keep this baby. No more freedom, no more late nights out with my girls, my life will mostly revolves around my husband, my kid, my family. And yes, I did hesitated awhile because I know I'm still young and I still have tons of adventure awaiting for me. But I still insisted in my decision.

So........

We got married on May 11th, Mother's Day 2014.

It was the happiest day in my life but it was also very tiring especially I'm having my baby at 5 months inside me.

AND IT'S A BOY.

Since young I've seen typical chinese shows about the elderly would always love a baby boy and etc but well, we're living in a modern society right now so even if it's a babygirl, she will still be my precious.

Some pictures of my wedding shots.

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE SHOT HEHEHE.

Well, pregnancy isn't that scary as you think it is. Yes during pregnancy you get really moody, get really emotional over small little issues. Especially your TEMPER.

But as long as your husband understands this point, everything will still be ok.

But for me, I've been suffering sleepless nights (insomnia), and also really bad mood swings. Even my husband realise and say I became really petty ever since I'm pregnant. Which I don't normally argue with him over small issues. And I find myself really paranoid most of the times and I really wish this period ends quickly.

But time flies too, I'm already at #week25 now !!!!!!

And his estimated due date will be on the 4th of September, how great!

I suggest to go for natural birth as it's better for your own body. You recover faster and also SLIM DOWN FASTER !! Which is a plus plus plus point for us. During pregnancy we gain so much weight and it's not easy to slim down. But if you have no choice but to go for cesarean, you can also find ways to slim down like doing much more exercise but please go according to your own body due to the operation your body tends to be weaker.

It's better if you have a space to at least write out how you feel than to keep it all to yourself. So either talk to your best friend, or find a private space to clear your thoughts.

That's all for today,

xx.