It's 3.24 am in the morning.

The very last day of my week 34 pregnancy week.

The only thing worth looking for throughout this whole pregnancy period is just the day whereby he arrives in this world safely. Been really excited to know how he actually look like, his features and his movements.

He has been very active during the last few weeks inside my tummy but I've no chance to actually video it down. He just immediately stop when I reach for my phone. And now it's gonna be the last week or last 2 weeks visiting the doctor before I'm officially due.

Been through a lot during this period of time, especially during the start of my pregnancy.

Suffered from really bad moodswings up till now, but I do not show my temper as and when I like. It's too demanding that way.

Well, the most important thing during pregnancy is having a caring partner to stay by you at all times even if you're really demanding at times but it's just for awhile.

Why do people actually suffer more when their partners ain't caring and understanding towards them?

- Because they have to keep everything to themselves and even if they need someone to hear them out, no one is actually there for them.

I'm not talking about just listening to your partner. It's not about having friends around you. Yes, friends are one of the most important thing in your life and they're always there for you. But the only person that's there 24/7 is actually your life partner.

So, if any husband happen to read this during your wife's pregnancy period, do care for her more and understand it's not easy to go through 10 months having a life inside her. Because she feel the changes more than you do.

I'm really eager to get back to work, and maybe because I've been out of the industry for quite some time, I start to think more when I'm home.

It's good to always keep yourself busy and that's when things don't get screw up easily.

Well, it's been a really tough week for me.

And I've learnt a lot by just observing things that's happening to me/around me.

Sometimes you just can't force things to go your way, and you just have to let it go.

By letting go, there's a few saying.

Letting go in a sense you stop bothering that much, or in a sense you just leave.

When it comes to a point whereby you no longer have tears even when you're really upset that's when you're really tired of holding on to something you know it's never gonna happen.

Without much expectations, hope.

But just merely disappointments.

You just have to let nature takes it's cause.

You can't do much actually, even by saying doesn't help.

It's gonna be a new week tomorrow, and perhaps I might have something more to look forward to.

If you think it's easy, think again.

Look things at her point of view and start thinking how she's been feeling for such a long time.

Ask yourself if you really did the right thing all along.

And most importantly, who actually cared most for you when you're at your lowest.

Think again.

Do what's right before everything goes down the drain.

Because no one waits forever.

She loves you, more than you can ever imagine.