It's been really really long that I actually have like 30 mins of free time to sit down

and start writing how I actually feel about LIFE again. The topics are pretty boring because it's all about my boring life, work, and back to my complains about life again. Pretty much not a person with interesting life stories to actually share about and feel kinda shitty almost everyday.

I realise how much confidence I lost in myself, especially when it comes to relationship. And after a very extremely good chat with one of my friend today, I realise that's the most important key to anything in your life. Including having the right people around you, you must have CONFIDENCE. And there's one thing some people always get the wrong idea of are being confident and being overly confident in themselves.

There's a diff, like a huge one.

Having self-confidence is simply just loving yourself more and

being proud of yourself. Not overly proud of course, but just able to present yourself in a nice manner. Well what I meant was (if it's still a little confusing), you actually make effort grooming yourself, have a beautiful inner self and also most importantly, start loving yourself more. Because there's always a sentence which says that "if you don't start loving yourself first, how can someone else loves you?"

It's just this way. You respect yourself, you pamper yourself, you give your best shot by having what you deserve to have because you worked for it.

And obviously people respect you back the same way because of how you present yourself.

You gotta know that everyone's different in their own way.

She's beautiful on the outside doesn't mean she's beautiful inside. But you might never know too. Everyone have their own character. You can NEVER EVER change their character because it's already built inside them for years.... And have you ever came across this sentence? "A leopard will never change it's spots"

You can only improve someone, but you can never change someone completely.

You need to love yourself more before you want your partner to love you the way you want to be loved. But if you don't even show him how much you love yourself, how do you want him to actually love you for the way you love yourself?

People copy and paste. People always see what you deserve and do you actually know how much you deserve? No you don't, until you wake up one day and start loving yourself more.

I have dark skin tone, I don't have the most perfect features or figure.

But I know as long as I love myself for who I am, I can always pamper myself in another way. I don't need fair skin to look pretty or have the best features and figure to attract anyone. Because loving myself makes me pretty, makes me beautiful inside and I might not even look good having fairer skin tone so why bother to tired myself out? Just actually apply lotions that slightly brighten up your skin tone and gives you a nice shade of toned skin. 

Remember,

you hold your own future.

you hold your own happiness.

Remember what you deserve,

show it by just simply loving yourself more.

knowing what is the best for you,

and be kind.

Being kind comes from within,

everyone's born kind.

That's all I have today,

well I have more to say but next time because I'm really super tired from work already....

Need a good night rest!

xx